feeling confused.

... my due date from the last pregnancy is in 2 days. I didn't really think about it and then it hit me today and it's been in the back of my mind since then. I was supposed to be going to the doc on the 17th, but had to reschedule it until the 27th... It would have been both weird and nice to be in there looking at the new baby on the due date of a baby that is gone.... At least I finally would have been able to put my brain at ease and have seen the baby in an Ultrasound.

I... dont know. My original plan was to just go get totally drunk on the 17th and not really deal with it, but a) that can't happen anymore, and b) I would have to deal with the emo problem AND the hangover the next day...

On another note, I have heard from DSHS and seem to be in good shape as far as getting insurance. I talked to someone named Rebecca and she sent me an income varification form and something I have to do for self employment and then I should be set. Whats really nice is that its supposed to cover eye and dental as well. So this terrible tooth I have, I can hopefully finally get it fixed. It's been killing me for like 4 months now :( Tomorrow I am going to mail the stuff in for DSHS and try to get coverage ASAP. Then Im going to call the doctor office and see if I can get in any sooner, even if I have to drive out to Issiquah... I just want to see the baby.

Tomorrow Im supposed to be 8 weeks. I am crossing my fingers that I am actually like 10-11 weeks and everything is fine with the baby. I just want to be out of this trimester. I am tired of being tired, and Im hormonal and my tits are killing me. Thats just the only way there is to put it. I used to stay up until like 3am working and now I can't even stay up until 1230 and not fall asleep on the couch. It's 10:04 right now and I could seriously go to bed and have NO problem passing out... And, the retarded thing is I slept almost 11 hours STRAIGHT last night. wtf, pregnancy!

Ok... well Im out of here. I can't really work anymore cause my hands are killing me from all the sewing I did earlier, so I guess I'll go eat some toffee from Tweet Toffee (I met her yesterday at Seattle Square) and fall asleep on the couch...