back again

Hey. Me again. Like you didn't know.

I stopped sucking it in and I look at least 3 months pregnant. Im not even 2 months yet. It's kind of weird. I still have another 6 weeks or so before its really ok to stop worrying and stuff. It'll be a huge relief in about 2 weeks when I get to go to the doctor. I just want to get the ultrasound and see what everything looks like. Im nervous. I try to stay busy and not think about it, but when you finally get pregnant after a loss its on your mind allll the time. specially when you're showing already. It's going to be hard to not tell people, specially now. I have blabbed to a few, and anyone keeping up to date on this blog will know, but I dont think thats very many.

I need to call DSHS and see about getting on the insurance, if we're going to be able to keep the ebt money we get, and have an appointment tomorrow to get more stuff from WIC. I have to get weighed... not excited about that, but I'll know how much weight I've gained since I got so busy with work I couldn't go to the gym anymore. After these next 2 weeks I am going back to the gym. I have to. I dont want to gain a ton of weight right before my 5 year anniversary party when I pop this thing out. Also... Im sure it's going to change when I get the ultrasound, but right now my due date is my 25th birthday. go figure.

Anyways... Im off for the night. Im exhosted all the flippin' time now... I dont make it much past 12 before Im falling asleep... Going to sit on the couch for the next hour, eat and crochet. Sounds good to me.

Peace.