Long time no post...

*sigh* Well, it's been a while, yeah? I started this blog to get me through the loss of a baby, and didn't feel the need to make small talk after that experience... but here I am again, waiting on the results of a little pee stick. Its been 6 months already since I was in the hospital, and about 10 days ago we officially started trying again. It looks like theres a double pink line, which is a good thing, being a positive test... but one of them is kinda faint. So being logical me, Im going to wait and take another test in the morning before sharing the news with hubby. I dont want to share and get my hope sup and start my period tomorrow. I dont need more let downs right now.

So here I am, blurting out my feelings to a computer screen, not wanting to tell the husband or friend but leaving it for the rest of the world to see. Oh technology. How you've managed to screw up personal communication, LOL.

I feel like I am bursting with this news, trying to keep a level head and not tell everyone is hard tho. I have plenty of sewing and stuff to keep me busy, but if that test IS right, it would seem that baby exhostion is already kicking my ass. that and I spent an hour or so in the scorching heat and im totally wiped out now. I wanted to take a nap but I feel like my brain would just be reeling the whole time anyways.

Hmm... well not that i've gotten that off my chest I feel better I suppose. I will be stopping at the store tonight to pick up a few more tests and see what tomorrow morning brings. I have had some serious baby blues lately, everyone around me getting pregnant and me wanting it so desperately. But, maybe we'll get lucky this time. Litterally, hah!

well I guess thats that for now. You can only go on so long before your repeating the same thing 64 times. I guess I will be back with the results tomorrow? so... stay tuned!