Public Health Yesterday...

So I went to public health yesterday to get my test done for proof of pregnancy, everything went ok. I had to have an internal exam to figure out how far along I am, which has made it a little pink if I pee, but I dont have any cramping so Im hoping I'm fine. She dated me between 6-8 weeks, after making me feel like a jackass for not taking a pregnancy test before starting birth control... First of all, I didn't have a period until after 6 weeks with my first loss, so having it happen a second time wasn't that weird. so STOP making me look like an idiot.

Then I called group health to make my appointment there and had to go into the group health lab and take a pee test. They wouldn't just take the other proof of pregnancy that I had. The tech asked if I wanted to wait for the results but I just said "this is my 4th test, Im pretty sure it's going to be positive!" LOL... so doing that test started my chart with group health, and Thursday I go in and meet with the nurse for an hour to get everything started. Hopefully soon after that I will be able to get in and see Peggy.

I called Dr. Werner yesterday and left a message telling them it was personal stuff that she said I could call about if I wanted to talk, and I haven't heard anything back from her yet. I called about 10am yesterday morning... If she doesn't call me back after this message Im kind of deflated and going to give up on even getting in contact with her until that balace is paid off with the office. Which sucks, but at the same time, I totally get it... I owe her money. Thats basically all there is to it right now

Anyways. I need to get my ass in gear, decide if Im getting coffee, and hit the grocery store. It's time to start getting stuff together for amaras birthday so it's not all last minute and stuff. I'll be back soon Im sure.

Update... sorta

So at this point... I've decided to go to Public Health and get my proof of pregnancy and DSHS taken care of. For now I think I am going to start seeing peggy again, and then as soon as we can pay off Dr. Werner I will go back to seeing her. I just have a lot of stuff going on in my head about it still... But taking advantage of the DSHS is the best idea for me to be doing, specially because I have to have a double root canal done. It's not safe with the baby to not have it taken care of.

So Tomorrow I am going to call Dr. Werner and let her know where Im at, how I really want to come back and see her but it's just not financially possible right now, and that I also dont want to continue to see her when I can't pay for the bills I owe her yet, let alone down the road... I hope she understands... It'd be nice if she could allow me to set up a payment plan, but I already understand if she doesn't want to do that. We tried that like 6 months ago, after she wiped off 50% of the medical bill I had with her, and I still couldn't do more than a $50 payment...

The more I think about going to Peggy and using DSHS the more responsible I feel about the entire situation... So I will just talk with Dr. Werner, and if Im not able to go back to see her then I'd like to be able to at least keep in contact with her, maybe get lunch or something once in a while. She's a great doctor and an excellent person. I appreciate all the help she has given me and REALLY dont want to stop seeing her, but it's also not putting me in a good place with her to continue going back when I can't pay...

So. There we go. Cristi is going with me so she can help with Amara if I need it... The nice thing is I can do the proof of pregnancy, WIC and DSHS all in the same place. Hopefully I wont have to wait in line forever... I hate sitting in those offices.

Oh yeah. And according to the gender chart on thebump.com I'm going to have a boy. The first loss was for sure a boy, and Im not sure about the second, but According to the chart it also would have been a boy. Thank god I had amara first! It seems like Im in the running for all boys from now on! Bleh. I didn't really want boys, LOL. But Im sure as hell not going to be picky!

I dun did it again!

Im pregnant.

Yep... Again. For the 3rd time this year. Talk about Fertile Mertile, right? Ugh, it's so confusing! There is a ton of drama going on with the doctor, finances and which insurance we're going to use, but on top of everything else, IM PREGNANT!

We were supposed to wait 3 months after my last D&C but I didn't start the birth control right away and I guess it happened about 2 weeks after the surgery... oops.

Im trying to have a different attitude about it this time than last time... Just go with the flow, enjoy being pregnant, and cross your fingers behind your back. I know that if something IS going to happen there is nothing I can do to prevent/predict it, so I can't stress about it. According to when I was supposed to ovulate, I should be about 9 weeks, which would be AWESOME because I'd be past the 8 week point when things have gone wrong twice in the past. Course last time I thought I was about 9 weeks and fell all the way back to 5 weeks and basically had to do a whole month over again... So either way as far as "far along" goes Im not really counting on anything till I just go to the doctor. I can't guess or predict when I would have been pregnant other than 2 weeks after surgery because I didn't have a period. I went straight from D&C, ovulating, birth control then not starting a period after the 3rd week of the patch, HUGE sore boobs, extreme exhaustion, carpal tunnel and RPL... I have the most random symptoms. No morning sickness, just naps every day, sore arms/wrist and it hurts like a bitch if I stand up too fast.

OH, and when I said sore boobs, I meand sore, huge boobs. I had to go buy a DD bra already. it's rediculas and ugly and it digs in my arm pits but I was litterally falling out of the last bra. A DD already?!?! How big are these things going to get?! Dylan is thrilled to say the least. Heh heh.

Anyways, thats all for now. I have to figure out some insurance stuff and possibly pay Dr. Werner $437 before I go back to see her (or switch to DSHS and go to Peggy, who was our midwife with Amara)... but it's a holiday weekend so I can't make any progress until Monday. What a pain in the ass.